I’m Not Gonna Fight This Feeling Anymore 

I’m genuinely a caring person. If someone I care about is worried my natural instinct is to help them and try to ease the burden that they are carrying. This is why I can’t understand why anyone is going out of their way to be cruel to each other lately. I see a bunch of posts saying that I haven’t deleted any one for their political choice. Well I haven’t deleted anyone because of their political choice. I have however deleted quite a few people because of the things that they support and the things that they don’t. The divide amongst us is greater than anything I have ever seen before. It’s dark and very ugly. 

In advocating for my special needs child and other children and families feelings are very important. In fact “how do you feel about this” is said at almost every single meeting I attend. The last few years I have taken the big step of teaching my children to advocate for themselves which breaks down to expressing their feelings about almost any and every situation they find themselves in. As the caregiver to my son I will be the first to tell you that the hardest years were the years he couldn’t verbally communicate how he was feeling. So basically my entire life is based on feelings. Now being called names for having them and showing them is something I do not understand. 

Nothing has ever been accomplished in life by not doing something about it. I admire people who are passionate and instead of posting for likes on fb and Instagram go out and do something with that passion. 

The town next to mine is right now suffering from lead poisoning. That’s very scary to me as a parent and even just as a person. I have sympathy for the families that are suffering because of this situation. Clean water is very important. 

I already stated that my child has special needs. That sentence alone defines itself. My child’s needs are different from other children. When those needs are met my child flourishes. He is known to score higher educationally when his needs are met than an average child. This is very important to me and I’m very passionate about that. I have fought for almost 8yrs now to educate myself on his rights and I have never been known to be silent about these battles. In fact I get regular support from my friends and family. I am the first person to offer a helping hand to others in a similar situation.

I have many friends and family in the LGBTQ Community. Over the last several years I have watched my friends marry the people they love and many of them have families whose only difference from my own are the gender of the parents. Their families are not anything less than my own. In fact I see their children flourish more than a lot of children born to traditional families. I see the happiness of their children and the incredibly special and beautiful bonds that they have chosen to create in their households. I support that and I stand behind them. 

On Saturday January 21, 2017 I had the joy of witnessing over 3 million people in the United States and many more worldwide stand together united in a peaceful protest that is now known to be the largest ever recorded in our history. For myself and many others this was such a beautiful day. While many were there for different reasons some of which are directly related to the ones I listed above in this post. I support them. It has hurt my soul to see American citizens criticizing the Constitutional right of this March and the people who support it and participated in it. This March was a stand for basic human rights. If you woke up tomorrow and your water was poisened by lead it would be your right to do what it took to resolve the situation. I would support you and I would support your outrage. I would also support your Constitutional right to reach a resolution for your situation. 

This post isn’t about him or her or any choice you made in the polls in November. This post is about us, our families, and our friends and whether or not we can support each other and our rights to have things such as clean water, good educations for our children, and the right to have a family. If you are going to pick and choose what Constitutional rights others can exercise should I be choosing what rights you can exercise? 

So if you insist I will be this little snowflake, but you should know that when you put over 3 million of us together that is one heck of a snowball. 

I Cringed When I Walked in My Child’s Classroom

This week I did some volunteer time in my daughter’s classroom. Naturally I was about 3 minutes late. When I walked in the door of the classroom I saw that our topic was politics. I cringed. My daughter is an innocent 8yr old who I kept this election from. As an adult I often felt as if even I should not have witnessed the things I did during this election and now I am expected to help with this lesson. Why oh why are we doing this? Millions of things raced through my mind. I wanted to grab my daughter by the hand and run.

Then it happened and I saw that none of the ugliness was going to be a part of this lesson and we were actually using this opportunity to show them what an election should be. Each child was asked to ‘run for President’ and build a platform. Now I was impressed.

There was no talk of why any other child should not be the President it was all about why individually they should ‘get your vote’ Now being that I was in a classroom full of 8 and 9 year olds I did not see some of their answers coming.

Our children are better people than we are. The answers coming from all these little people really did something for my soul.

I would protect our planet all of the Earth and the water. I would teach everyone how to garden so that no one would ever go without food. I would tell Americans that we all just need to be kind and care about each other. I would tell my fellow voters to vote for me so we can work together and build better communities.

These are just some of the answers our 3rd grade children were giving.

As they worked on the craft part of this project I got a chance to whisper chat with the teacher. I had been a bit worried about how we were going to make this transition with our children. Our kids have seen a lot more than we think they have over this last year and they for the most part know that we should be doing better. Well it looks like that’s where the focus will be. For now we just need to teach them to do better.

Obviously our children need to learn about Government, Constitution, Laws, etc. So now I will wait it out with the rest of our Country and see what the next POTUS and FLOTUS have to offer to our schools.  I will also be waiting and looking forward to the year that those 3rd graders are old enough to run for President.

 

 

KLEEM ORGANICS GIVEAWAY

I’ve recently made an entire lifestyle change. I never been one to wear makeup often. I feel it’s more important to take care of your skin than hide the problems. This has become one of my favorite products. I’m putting Vitamin C directly onto my face. You can honestly feel every inch of your face ‘wake up’ within a minute of applying this wonderful product. 

KLEEM is a professional Age Defying Vitamin C Serum. I use it every morning on my face and neck. It’s been a bit over a month since I started and I can honestly see the difference in my skin. I was starting  to get a a saggy patch on my neck, as I am getting older. I can honestly say that I don’t look my age. If I tell people my real age they don’t believe me. I’m not going to tell you all what it is, but you wouldn’t believe me either.

I’ve even had lifetime friends tell me you look different. It’s a good different and I can’t pinpoint it. I laugh and tell them what it is I’m using and have had a few try it from my bottle. Just to feel their skin ‘wake up’ It’s a feeling that’s hard to describe as I’ve never felt this from any other product in my lifetime. 

A good skincare routine is very important to your aging process and this is one I highly recommend. It’s not often you find a skincare product that does exactly what it says in the description.

Kleem will help you create vibrant youthful looking skin. My skin honestly looks better now than it did in my 20’s. Kleem is the most stable bio available form of Vitamin C formulated to minimize the appearance of signs of aging. This antioxidant-rich refreshing elixir, with no harsh chemicals combats rough texture, fatigue, puffiness, dull, and dis colored skin to yield a noticeable radiant, healthy look and more youthful looking skin. It’s ideal for all skin types. It doesn’t clog your pores and in my case I’m daily noticing the changes its made for me. Not to mention how velvety soft your skin feels afterward. 

Kleem has teamed up with me to give one lucky winner a chance to try a bottle for free. Now I have been using this product for over a month and my bottle is nowhere near empty. You really get your money’s worth with this product. It only takes one small pump to cover your entire face and neck. 

I would like to add in the fact that this product is working well with some scars I have on my face. It’s a great product for anyone who suffers from acne or any scars from previous acne. Not everyone has perfect skin and I haven’t had one breakout since I started using KLEEM. 

For anyone not wanting to wait or per chance you are interested but perhaps didn’t enter or win the contest KLEEM has  given me a promo code to allow you to use on Amazon for a discount of purchasing for $18 instead of the $34.99 regular price. 

$18 Coupon Offer

To enter for your chance to win a free bottle all you have to do is leave a comment on this post. Share it with your friends so they can have a chance themselves. 

Winner will be picked on July 15, 2016 

I encourage everyone to enter. I wish I was able to give everyone a bottle. I can’t say enough good things about this product. It’s definitely done a great job for my skin and fit perfectly into my lifestyle change as it contains natural and organic ingredients. 

Now for the legalities. The views and opinions expressed on this blog are my own. I only endorse products in which I believe in and these are my personal opinions based on my own trial of the product. I have been compensated and received free product in exchange for my opinion. 

Being an Autism Mom and Caregiver

By now everyone knows I’m an Autism mom. I don’t think everyone connects the full time caregiver with it.

My days start at 5:30 am. I open my eyes and wonder what I will find as I step out of bed. My awake hours are 5:30am-12:30am. So during the 4-5 hrs I may have slept I often find that my son had woken during the night. On some nights he wakes me up, some he doesn’t. Some nights he falls right back to sleep, but that’s often not the case. I can find my kitchen destroyed, full gallons of milk left on the counter, or his bed covered in whatever container of snack foods he has grabbed and taken into his room. His bedding needs pretty much a daily washing along with the full cleaning of his bedroom.

At 6:00 am it’s time to start waking him up. This is usually a 30 min process. I never know how it’s going to work out. Most mornings it’s like poking an angry bear. I schedule in a 30 min waking period for him. Then from 6:30-7:00am it’s a process of getting him in a functional mood. At 7:00 am it’s time for breakfast which is usually a nightmare due to his sensory issues. One morning crunchy cereal can be perfect and the next he can’t handle the way it feels in his mouth. So at least 4 mornings a week I’m scrambling to find something healthy that fits his sensory needs.

Now at 7:30am it’s time to start the process of dressing for school. Once again due to sensory issues there are no tags on any clothing, no buttons or zippers on his pants, and the pants have to be loose enough that they don’t restrict the positions he feels the need to sit or lay in. Some materials are to scratchy. For instance finding a winter coat for him this year was a horrible experience. Some mornings I may even have to change his socks up to 3 times just to find what feels right to him. Mind you through all of this I am also getting a second child ready at the same time. This process can take up to 40mins.

Now I have to have his mood in a good place before the bus arrives. Some mornings this is the biggest challenge of all.

So by 8:30 am most mornings I’m so heartbroken by the challenges and lots of cruel things that have been said by him during his outbursts and his tearful remorse because he didn’t mean the things he said that I may need a good cry or an hour to lay there in complete silence thinking about how maybe tomorrow will go differently. I’m basically doing an hour of therapy in my head so I can get my day started.

I now have about 5 hrs before he returns home. This may sound like a lot of time, but as I mentioned above my ‘to do’ list has already been started and at any moment the school may call and summon me there.

Now is when I can pull out whatever he requested for dinner. Most days he asks for a specific dinner and by the time he gets home his sensory needs have changed and he may not be able to tolerate either the smell, taste, or feeling of it. Then I’m scrambling to come up with something quickly to replace his meal.

I start off with his bedroom because stripping a bed, washing all the bedding, and putting it back on daily is frankly a pain in the ass. I multi task so once I start there I have a million other things going on at the same time. My breaks are when I can actually check my email, bank, pay bills, plan budgets, file paperwork.  (the amount of Autism paperwork is incredible)

By now  I have about 3 hrs left before his return. I may need to run out for groceries or meds and in that case I have o have someone in my home in case the school calls. Most days I do not even wnt to leave the house as its such a hassle.

Now its 3:45 and his bus arrives bringing him home. He is usually starving as I didn’t even mention above that I have to supply a vast array of food to meet his sensory needs at school.  So now we start the dinner ritual. I’m lucky if I get to sit down and eat with the kids. I usually don’t.

After dinner its time to start homework. I have to split the kids up to do this so they can stay focused and I can endure the mental toture that goes along with it.

Now its bathtime and I haven’t even showered myself yet because I might  as well just take a bath myself before I get to go to bed.

We can now try to do something together or their father steps in at this point to give me a much needed break. If I take that break then I am losing quality time with the kids and I mentally beat myself up for that.

My wardrobe is casual, comfortable, and usually bleach stained somewhere.  So basically if I’m wearing sweats and a T-shirt without a stain then I’m probably leaving the house for something.

Now its about 7pm and we start our bedtime process which usually takes about 3hrs before both children are actually asleep. Once they are finally sleeping I myself can take a bath, put on clean pajamas, and fill out any school forms, check the calendar for the following day, etc.

Now it’s anywhere from 9-11pm so I can actually wach something off the DVR. This is a must have in my house or I would never get to watch tv. I’m usually about 5 episodes behind on anything I really enjoy watching.

Now it’s 12:30am and I am so exhausted, my body hurts, I remember that I either skipped lunch or dinner and that’s why my stomach is rumbling but I’m just to tired to even get back up.

The reason I am even writing this post is because I get really tired of trying to explain why I can’t join something, do something, or its not even worth buying something because I am last on my priority list. No matter what anyone tells me “I should do” I know what it is that I have to do. I live for the weekends and breaks from school. Although it doesn’t change our schedule we can skip a few of the things required of us during the week. So the next time you decide to judge an Autism mom/full time caregiver maybe you should rehink that because that mom probably had one hell of a day!

 

 

Messy People

Messy people are toxic to your life. They come disguised as friends and sometimes even family. 

We deal with them thinking we are obligated for any given reason.

I personally have decided to take a stance and stop letting them be messy in my life. 

I choose to set goals for myself and my life on a regular basis. Once I reach a goal I set a new one. Not everyone wants change in their lives. I think that’s why they stay being messy. 

Never in my life have I ever thought I am better than anyone. However I do know that I’m striving to reach higher levels in my life. I can’t do that by keeping anchors of messy people around. This doesn’t make me better than anyone. It simply means I’ve reached a new level in my life. 

My main focus is always my children. I’m flooded with advocating, meetings, Psychiatric appts, therapy and then all the regular parenting stuff we all have to deal with in life. I often neglect myself in order to accomplish all of these things. 

After a lot of thinking I have decided that if I barely have time for important things for myself I certainly don’t have time for messy people.

I am so thankful for the wonderful women (and men) that I do choose to surround myself with. These people are inspiring to me and throughout my sober journey they have really motivated me. 

Im the only one who can change my life for the best. If I allow messy people to surround me then they will drag me down and stall my growth. I’ve worked way to hard in these last 8yrs to let anyone take me backwards or anchor me to where I am now. Which isn’t a bad place, but I know I have the potential and determination to reach a better place.

Messy people are just as bad as toxic people they just disguise it a little better. 

Hello #SilknSmooth Goodby Shaving

There is nothing like going to bed at night with freshly shaven legs. As a busy mom I always say one of my favorite things is fresh shaved legs and clean sheets. The reality is as a busy mom I don’t have time to shave everyday. Thankfully thanks to #SilknShave those days are almost over for me.

I’ve just finished my 4th treatment with my #SilknShave and although you may not see results until the recommended 6-8 treatments I’ve seen mine after the very first one. My hair is now growing back much slower and my shave time has decreased entirely. 

  
It’s so easy to use. After you shave your legs it takes about 20-30 minutes 

  
Well I have a promo code for you to use on the website

https://www.silkn.com

Use the promo code NOHAIR at checkout to get a great discount. The promo code expires on January 31, 2016

In my opinion this is a must have device. I’m looking forward to reaching my last treatments. This is a laser hair removal treatment that’s so easy and comfortable to do in your own home. 

Now for the legal stuff: I received this product for free and all opinions written here are my own.

Walpurgis Review

This is a video review by my 7yr old about Mezco Toyz Living DeadDolls Walpurgis

Langston literally prepared for this video in 5 mins of walking in the door from Back to School Night.

I will be hosting her a little more often as she seems to have wonderful Vlogger potential and hits all the plugs right on point.

overall my personal review for Walpurgis is a 10 star (we rate 1-10 here)

To see what Langston rates her you will need to click the following link

Note this blog has not been sponsored and she picked and purchased this doll with her own Summer money. She gave a special shoutout to Susan Zeidler as she hosted the resurrection IX contest that we won!

Teaching Acceptance of Choice

Last week I had an instant, a nano second, that I became so aware of the power of influence we as parents have on our children.

I knew that the words I was about to speak were going to have an effect on my child’s way of thinking for the rest of her life.

I felt my heart start to beat faster. I felt myself gasp. My mind raced so quickly.

It started off as a normal before bed routine. One child had fallen asleep and I had some one on one time with the other. We decided to watch a movie together. As the ending of the movie approached I walked out of the room to bring the remnants of our snacks and drinks to the kitchen. I took that opportunity to also use the restroom. When I walked back into the room I stopped and had a mini panic attack as I saw that the movie had ended and my child was staring at the Bravo Channel playing ‘I am Cait’

By now we all know the story of Bruce Jenner and his transition to Caitlyn Jenner but my 7yr old sure didn’t. There it was plastered on the big screen tv and my child was intensely watching and listening and to my shock interested in it. My eyes and ears quickly dart to the television to see and hear what she was.

Breathe I thought to myself at this moment.

It’s not provocative, it’s not a sex scene, no-one is naked or cursing. Ok now what?  I glance back to her and her eyes haven’t moved from the television. My mind is racing as fast as my heart and I’m confused as to what I need to do at this very moment. I sat down next to her where I was before I had left the room and I casually reached for the remote.

That’s when she looked over at me so innocently and asked “Mom is that a man or a woman?”

How do I explain this to my young child? I worry about a lot of things as a parent and this was one that had never crossed my mind.

I took a deep breath and I decided I was going to let my child help guide me through this. I was going to use my Conscious Parenting right now. I responded by asking her what she thought the answer was. She replied “She’s very pretty but I heard her say she was a man before”

I told her “yes the person you see as a pretty lady was born a boy and grew up to be a man.” I then began telling her about Bruce Jenner and his Olympic and life accomplishments. I noted to myself that she was showing pride in what he had accomplished. I really started to ease up inside as I now had to tell her why this Olympic Champion was wearing makeup, a dress, heels and looks like “a pretty lady”

I told her as a child he didn’t feel like a boy he felt like a girl on the inside. He was a good person and tried very hard to be a good man. He won in the Olympics, he got married, and he even had children but inside he felt like a girl no matter what he looked like on the outside I said he was sad about that on the inside. So now that his children are all grown up he decided to tell them and the entire world that he didn’t feel like a man he felt like a woman.

I then stopped and asked her how she felt about that. I had simply given her the facts and hadn’t offered a personal opinion. She was sympathetic towards his feelings and she said “maybe that’s like some people have a disability mom”

Once again I let her guide this conversation because I was learning from her that this wasn’t in any way about my feelings about the situation it needed to be about hers. I could offer her any opinion right now in this very moment and most likely it was going to influence her into feeling some type of way for the rest of her life. Right this minute my child was teaching me a very important parenting lesson. Hatred, Racism, Acceptance are all bred.

I was no longer having a mini panic attack inside I was feeling so proud of my parenting style and that I had given my child the  power of choice and that she had all on her own chosen acceptance.

They say to watch your words carefully around your children. In my personal opinion I think we all need to take more time and listen to the words and choices our children make.

At the end of our personal story my daughter chose to be proud of the accomplishments of Bruce Jenner and to be accepting of the feelings and choices of Caitlyn Jenner.

I’m going to follow my child’s lead a little more often~

Pampering In The Sun

Today it was 90° and a very clear sky with the brightest Sun ever. These are my favorite type of days.

As I lounged around by the Pool letting the kids swim I had a great idea.

The Chlorine from the pool destroys my hair so I thought this would be a great opportunity to try something different.

As I dodged in for cold drinks and snack I grabbed the bottle of EVOO (extra virgin olive oil) I had my hair braided up and began drenching it in olive oil.

I rubbed it deep into my scalp and stayed out there for a few hours.

When I came in I simply washed it out with a fancy replenishing hydrating conditioner and am incredibly happy with the results.

My hair is now dry and the softest it’s been all summer. I’m definitely going to be doing this again.

I wouldn’t recommend submerging your head in the pool with the oil on it but then again that’s what the hose is for.

Try it and I promise you won’t need a high priced hot oil treatment ever again. You can simply grab one from your kitchen.

Here’s to soft hair everywhere~

Self Serve Snack Station

Let’s face it we are all busy. It doesn’t matter if you are a Stay at Home Mom, Work at Home Mom, Work Outside the Home Mom we Moms are all very busy and that minute we actually sit down to relax you can bet that there will be a child who “just needs a snack” Sometimes it’s even during the most inconvenient times like when you are elbows deep into mixing a bowl of meatballs or scrubbing the bathroom down. That snack demands everything to your child at that moment and we moms think to ourselves ‘do these kids ever stop eating?’

I’ve been using Self Serve Snack Stations for a little over a year now and I definitely recommend them for every mom.

Considering the fact that a bunch of open bags are just so messy looking and that the food inside usually gets stale really quickly I invested into some air tight containers. I was able to find some at a local big name store within my budget and they come in different sizes that are stackable. Since we are an Autism household they needed to be easy to open and close.

I try my best to stay on the healthy side but I honestly include some kind of chips in at least one container. In the near future I am hoping to add a few containers of dehydrated fruits. I do keep a nice bowl of fruit on the table and often catch them snacking out of it as well.

This has freed up a lot of time personally for me and when I get the chance to sit down with a hot cup of coffee I no longer hear “Mom I need a snack right now”

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